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I thought I'd talk about some things which I find really help my chronic pain/illness on my blog today and hopefully, if you also suffer from chronic pain or a chronic illness then this might be helpful for you. Obviously, everyone is different and some things that work for me might not work for you or be your cup of tea and vice versa. 

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If you're a regular reader of my blog or follow me on my blog's instagram or my private instagram where I talk more about my day-to-day life living with chronic pain then you'll know that I swear by CBD products for my chronic pain, suspected endometriosis and my anxiety. I started using CBD after I became allergic to NSAID's after I had a severe allergic reaction to Mefenamic Acid which I was prescribed for my pelvic pain. Since that happened, I've basically been too scared to try any new prescription painkillers I've been offered by my doctor because I'm absolutely terrified of having the same reaction because I literally couldn't breathe properly, my heart rate was going crazy and I had an all-over itchy rash too. Obviously, CBD is natural and it's known for its anti-inflammatory properties and I do find that it does help with my day-to-day pain and my anxiety. My go-to CBD oil is the 600mg Oral Drops in the Berry flavoured from BeYou just because I really like the Berry flavour and it also works out cheaper than other CBD brands on the market as it's only £19.99 for a 30ml bottle which really is a bargain. I've also tried their Natural flavoured 300mg CBD Spray* which you can read about in this blog post. They recently sent me over their 1200mg CBD* to try out in the Lemon flavour which is the next strength up from 600mg that BeYou offer, so in this post, I'm going to be talking about how I've got on with the 1200mg Oil and whether or not I actually like the Lemon flavour.

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When I got the opportunity to try Our Remedy's 500mg CBD* which is a vegan and cruelty-free CBD oil specifically made for periods and all the lovely things that come along with having a period such as mood swings, bloating, increased anxiety etc, I just had to give it a try! Even though I very rarely get a period any more thanks to the pill I'm on, I still get what I call phantom periods occasionally when my mood is all over the place, my chin grows a couple of hormonal mountains (aka spots) and I feel really bloated and crampy. Adding to that I've also obviously got my chronic pelvic pain/suspected endometriosis which affects my day-to-day life too.

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 I'm sure you probably know by now that I'm a big fan of BeYou, their CBD products really help with both my period pain and my chronic pain and their monthly patches are fab too. They reached out to me recently and asked if I would be interested in trying out their new CBD Gummy Bears which are exclusive to Superdrug along with their 300mg CBD Spray which are both products I'd never tried from BeYou before, so I obviously yes, please! I've been using them both for a little while now and I wanted to talk about how I've been getting on with each of them.
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In today's post I'm talking about CBD again but in a whole different form to what I'm used to using. Over the past couple of weeks, I've been testing out Budslife CBD Patches*. Each of their patches contains 16.7mg of CBD and 0.001 mg THC and slowly release CBD into your bloodstream for up to 8-10 hours. Here's more about how I got on with using them...
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I'm sure by now you will know that I like to try out different CBD brands and products on the market. I also know a lot of people read my blog who suffer from similar chronic pain/illnesses to me as well as anxiety and I do get DMs frequently about using CBD. In today's post, I'm talking about two products from Herts Hemp which are their CBD drops and CBG drops which I'd actually never heard of before until now. 
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Travelling never used to be a problem before my chronic pain started back in 2018 but now I find it hard to travel in a car if I'm travelling any distance over around 30 miles which is crazy, considering I was always up for spontaneous or planned days out when you're stuck in the car for hours on end before I became unwell. Now I find it quite draining and uncomfortable to be stuck in a car for even an hour and obviously that affects how I feel once I get out of the car too. So it's really knocked me back and makes me question what I feel I can push myself to do in general. However this year I've set myself a couple of goals and I've also thought about some things which could help me if I'm travelling further than around the 30-mile radius I can just about put up with. I'm not saying I'm going to jump on a plane and travel to a warmer climate any time soon but there are definitely a few places that I want to try and visit this year within the UK. Most of them are places which I used to love visiting before I got ill. So here are my "goals" and a couple of the places I'm hoping to visit this year.

My first goal is that I need to be realistic with myself and know that I'm not going to be able to walk around or do as much as I used to before I got unwell. But even if I get to the town/city I want to visit and walk around even half the amount as I used to, it's still better than nothing! It's places like Matlock, Bakewell and Manchester which I used to love visiting a couple of years ago, where I know I may now struggle to walk around now either because of my pain or the fear of flaring but the plus side is that there are loads of little coffee shops and things where I can go if I need to rest for a short spell. But when I know I've done enough for one day then I need to stop and go home and not overdo it. 

I also really need to make sure I give myself time to recover days after I've done a "big day out" as I like to call them haha. I'm a bit silly sometimes because I don't let my body properly recover if I've done something which is quite draining or could/has made my pain flare and then I just make myself more unwell for a longer amount of time. It's almost as if I'm punishing my body for not letting me do things I used to be able to do. It's kind of strange to be honest.
I'm also looking into mobility aids such as Lightweight Wheelchairs for travelling which could really help me when I'm in a big town or city. It also means I'd be able to push myself a little more and try and travel further distances because I know if I do travel for a longer amount of time then I know I don't have to worry about trying to walk around if my pain is flaring, as long as whoever I'm with is happy to push me around in the wheelchair. Obviously, with it being a lightweight wheelchair, it means it'd be easy to carry around in the car as well as being easy to take out and put back in the car after using it too.

I think the biggest "travel" goal for me this year is to visit Chester Zoo, which I know might sound really trivial to you if you are an abled person. But it's a big place and I haven't been in years. I just think it's a good goal to aim for because I really want to go anyway, I was hoping to go last year but I couldn't but that was mainly because of other things that were going on in my life as well as my fear of flaring taking over. I also love The Secret Life of the Zoo and every time I watch it, it just makes me want to visit ASAP. I'd definitely need some sort of mobility aid like a wheelchair to get around though so I think it depends on my confidence using a wheelchair too. But I really hope I can manage it this Summer!

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I can't believe as I'm writing this it's been over 6 months since I was basically forced to go on the mini pill for my chronic pain/suspected endometriosis. Like where has that time gone? Anyway I wrote this post all about my experience so far which I think I wrote after being on it for around 3 months. However there's been some weird things going on since then that I just wanted to talk about as I know some people have been following blog for my (suspected) endometriosis journey and any posts I write about it. Also when I say suspected I mean pretty certain btw. It's the doctors who are "blind" to the fact that I have the majority of the symptoms and have done for years. I honestly think my chronic pain kicked off last year because the endometriosis has gotten worse over the years without being detected and now it's built up inside of me and it's just inflamed and angry all of the time. The only problem is now is that any doctor I see is basically playing god with my body when things could be seriously messed up inside of me, to the point that I might not be able to have kids if I want them in the future, which I'm pretty sure I do. Also because I'm plus size, I constantly get fat shamed during every doctor/hospital visit too. 

Anyway I've had some weird things going on since my last blog post about going on Cerazette and I just thought I'd basically brain dump everything here for both myself to look back on and also anyone else who is having the same or similar symptoms (whether you have endo or not). 


First up is cramps... I've been getting monthly cramps minus a period which is super annoying. My actual chronic pelvic pain still isn't as bad as it was when I wasn't on the pill which again, is another obvious symptom that the doctors should pick up on. The pill is helping my pelvic pain which pretty much says my pain is gynaecological related and not just sudden onset "chronic pain". I've also had scans and blood tests in the past year which have ruled out any other concerns including fibroids, PCOS and anything more sinister. So it means everything is pointing to endometriosis again. For the cramps I've been getting I've been using a mixture of either CBD products, BeYou Patches and strong paracetamol (I can't take NSAIDS so yep, fun for me).


I also got a period. Yep and guess when it arrived? On Friday the 13th and also during a full moon. That is some witchcrafty, powerful shit, right? I was just like oh my god and then I shouted downstairs to my mum to tell her hahaha. I literally felt like I was getting my very first period all over again. I've definitely been taking white bedding for granted over the past 6 months. The period itself in terms of the flow wasn't too bad, it was light-moderate and nowhere near as heavy as my usual periods and I didn't really get any clots like I would normally (sorry tmi but just being real). I just whacked my trusty ModiBodi on and I was fine. It was the pain that was the issue, it wasn't as bad as they usually are during my "natural period" but it was still up there on the pain scale and it was setting off my pelvic pain even more than usual. So yeah, it's safe to say it was not a good 5 days. I just hope I only get one every 6 months or so because I can just about handle that. 


Something else which is really weird and I don't know if it's just me finally growing up and realising that "my type" always end up turning out to be arseholes or if it's the pill affecting me but my "taste" in men has changed a lot. Which I've got to admit is very weird because my type has been very samey for years and then all of a sudden it's changed a lot and it kind of coincides with when I started on the mini pill. So I do think it's pill related in some sense because of the hormonal changes. I've also read articles about it prior to going on the pill about people being in long-term relationships or even married and then not being attracted to their other half all of a sudden after going on the pill or changing pills. It's all a bit weird and scary really, isn't it?


I've also noticed that some days (usually in the middle of my pack) I'll get really intense cravings for the most random foods, usually things I can't eat because they set my pain off too. So yeah, ngl that's annoying.

Overall I do think the mini pill I'm on (Cerazette) helps with my daily pelvic pain and it's obviously a plus that it's almost stopped my periods too. I still have pain every single day with my pelvic pain and that general area really but it's not as intense as it was. I think if the pain sprung on an "normal" person who doesn't have pain day-to-day, they'd probably go to A&E or at least to the doctors but because I'm used to the day-to-day pain, it doesn't affect me that much. Also I know it can be a heck of a lot worse to the point I can't walk, bend down or stand up straight because of the crippling pain. 

I don't have really bad flare ups of pain every single day like I was last year when it really started to kick off but I would say I get at least a few per week. The pain I get still drastically affects my day-to-day life and I can't do things that I used to before I got ill and even on my lesser pain days I have the constant fear of flaring so if the fear takes over I tend to back out of any sort of loose plans I make.

I do want to continue to take the mini pill and I've got such bad anxiety about my upcoming doctors later this month because I'm so worried my doctor will try and randomly take me off it because if she does then I don't think I can cope with the pain I was having every single day last year.

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I thought I'd do a blog post about what things help relieve my chronic pain the most. If you're new to my blog then I have chronic back and pelvic pain which all kicked off in January 2018. I personally think that I have endometriosis but the many doctors I've seen just don't want to listen to my pretty obvious symptoms (some of which I've had for literally years too) and now every doctors appointment I go to they just bang on about weight instead of my daily chronic pain. Fun. So I've kind of given up on even going to doctors appointment anymore. I also had a bad reaction to Mefenamic Acid last year when I couldn't breathe properly, had a rash all over my body and it hurt my chest to breathe so since then I've not been able to take any NSAID's (such as ibuprofen) because they're all in the same medical family and I'm really wary of any new prescribed pills I get offered. So in this post I'm talking about what things and ways help me to get some relief from my pain.

The best health discovery for me last year was without a doubt CBD oil. I know I'm always banging on about it but it really does help with my pain most days. I tend to use a 500mg strength but I do have stronger versions for the really bad days. I still struggle day-to-day with my pain and I do find that the CBD helps my pelvic pain more than my back pain but I definitely feel like I can do a bit more than last year when I spent the whole summer in bed basically wishing I just was dead (and no that's not an exaggeration). I also feel like I'm in a better mindset most days because it does help with anxiety and stress levels too. I use both THC free and THC containing CBD oils/balms but they both are totally legal in the UK and they won't get you high like I know a lot of people worry about. My favourite places to buy from are from Bristol CBD, The.DrugStore and I've also been enjoying using the CBD Muscle Balm from BeYou. For when I'm out and about I find Naturopathica CBD Lozenges* are a lifesaver too and they taste nice! 

I've found that the pill has been helping with my pelvic pain quite a lot. As I write this I've had 3 days with minimal pelvic pain (but my back has been flaring bad ugh). But I definitely feel like for me personally if I do have endometriosis then the mini pill in particular has been helping with my symptoms most of the time. I do still have flare ups but not as often and I'll go hours and/or days with minimal pain now. However if I get stressed out/upset or annoyed about something then it tends to bring on the pain. You can read more about my experience on the pill I'm currently on here.

I've recently realised that Epsom Salts are a lifesaver for my chronic back pain and it's nice to have 20 minutes of relief whilst I'm in the bath. I tend to stick to what I know and buy my epsom salts from Westlab but I recently decided to try their Mindful Bathing Salts and they are so good! The bag contains a mixture of Epsom and Himalayan Salts with Frankincense and Bergamot as well as added CBD oil. It smells gorgeous and I find it really calms my back pain too. They're usually on offer for less than a fiver on LookFantastic and there's various other options too. 

Something else which I think helps my back pain is my Kinetik TENS Machine (from Argos). I did initially buy it for my pelvic pain when that first started but I think it actually aggravates the area and then I tend to be in more pain the next day. But I do find that the TENS machine is good for ovulation/period pains and also my chronic back pain. So I do recommend a TENS machine but if you're reading this and have undiagnosed pelvic pain then just be careful. It does have quite a lot of "settings" but I only use 3-4 of them as I find some of them are a bit uncomfortable. But it was definitely worth buying!

I spend most of my time with a hot water bottle either on my lower back or lower stomach, even in the summer months. I just find that heat really relieves pain and I find it quite comforting too when I'm having a bad flare up too. 

Lastly is distractions... although this isn't an actual pain reliever I find that trying to distract my mind from my pain is helpful. I do this by watching TV shows, films or playing games - I'm currently going through a phase of being obsessed with the Sims haha. I also find that if I'm watching something which is more of a thriller/horror then it'll take my mind off my pain more. I know that sounds weird but it's something I've noticed and I think it's because I'm more on edge and invested into the show/film.

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I've already talked about Naturopathica before when I tried their Citrus flavoured CBD Lozenges for the first time but I recently got an email asking if I'd be interested in trying out their Natural Strawberry flavoured 350ml CBD oil*. Although I usually prefer a higher strength CBD oil for my daily pain I thought it sounded interesting and strawberry is one of my favourite fruits. Because I have been using a CBD balm recently I thought I could use the CBD balm for my chronic pain (on my pelvic bone and lower back) and then use the 350ml CBD oil for my anxiety and/or sleeping problems to test it out properly.

What I love most about the Naturopathica 350ml CBD oil* is that it tastes exactly like strawberry. It doesn't taste fake or over the top and it also doesn't leave a "natural" CBD after taste like some flavoured CBD oils do. I'm personally not that bothered about the taste of CBD oil because I know it helps my pain, so I'd rather put up with the taste and help relieve the pain a little. But I know some people don't like the taste of CBD and that's what puts them off trying it long-term.

I've found the the Naturopathica CBD oil has done well in terms of helping to calm my mind when I'm feeling super stressed and believe me, it's definitely been put to the test over the past couple of weeks! I also find it helps settle my mind a little before I go to sleep which helps me to get to sleep because my brain likes to overthink things a lot at night. I do hope to see a stronger strength version at some point but I would repurchase when it runs out because I really like the taste and I did find it helped with my anxiety. So because of that I would recommend it trying it out if you're wanting to try a lower strength CBD oil.

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If you read this post back in March then you'll know that I decided to go on the pill to see if it'd help with my chronic pelvic pain/suspected endometriosis. Unfortunately during my last doctors appointment back in April my doctor kicked off about my weight (instead of actually discussing how my pain has been since being on the pill) and she took me off the combined pill immediately. She switched me to the mini pill instead which is commonly known as the POP pill. It contains progesterone only and you take it daily as opposed to the combined pill which you take for 21 days and then have a 7 day break. When she told me she was putting me on Cerazette I literally muttered "Oh shit" under my breath because I've read and heard so many horror stories about that pill in particular from irregular bleeding, cystic acne, continuous bleeding, weight gain, mood swings and so on. But I know that going on the combined pill helped relieve my chronic pelvic pain a little and I personally felt that the side effects I had from going on the pill were worth it in exchanged for less intense pain every single day. 

As I write this I've just started my third month of Cerazette and once again it's been a wild journey. I definitely feel like I've experienced more side effects on Cerazette but I also feel like it's been helping my pain a little bit more than Microgynon did so I'm still kind of weighing up the pros and cons if I'm being totally honest. 

So let's talk about what side effects I've been dealing with over the past couple of months... 

First of all I've got to talk about my skin and what's been going on with it. When I was on the combined pill I went about 2 months with pretty much pristine spot-free skin, which was amazing! Especially as I'm quite prone to spots normally and I have oily skin. Literally within about 3 days after going on Cerazette my skin started breaking out like crazy and it also got super oily. I was so pissed off and I almost stopped taking it there and then. Then about a week of being on it I noticed I was getting these weird bumps on my cheeks (mainly on the left side) and since then they've got bigger and have spread out more across my cheeks. You may have seen this tweet when I was asking if anyone had any ideas on how to help get rid of them (p.s I look rough AF in the photo but please ignore that lol). So it's probably something I'm going to have to talk about with my doctor when I go and see her again because they're really affecting my confidence which isn't great anyway as they're really visible through my high coverage foundations and concealers. I'm currently trying various different skincare acids from Glycolic, Salicylic and Lactic to see if any of them will help but so far I haven't seen much improvement.

I also had really bad pain in my boobs for a week straight during my first month of being on the mini pill. If I accidentally knocked them or lay on them without a cushion supporting me I would literally yelp out in pain. I couldn't wear any sort of bra for that whole week either. But I'm guessing that my body was adjusting to the mini pill as I didn't experience it during my second month. Thank god. 

Another symptom which I think is pill related is that I feel bloated more often and you can literally see my belly bloating up and down. I also gained another 8lbs like I did when I first went on the combined pill. So I'm guessing an 8lb gain is the norm for my body and if/when I switch pills now. How fun... Not. Especially when I already have the doctors banging on about my weight instead of actually trying to figure out what's causing my chronic pain. I've also been experiencing nightmares quite often but I don't know if that's immediate side effects of the pill or if it's just because I've been dealing with a lot of stressful things over the past couple of months. But it sucks either way. Ugh.

So let's talk about the positives... I haven't had a period in two months. Absolutely nothing. Which I suppose is a good thing but I feel like if I was in a relationship right now then I'd probably be in full on meltdown most of the time thinking I'm pregnant. I still get period-like cramps around the time of the month I'd be getting a period but it's nowhere near as bad as it normally is. I just stick a BeYou patch on and hug my hot water bottle for a few hours (lol) and they both help to settle the pain. I've also not been having the bad mood swings that Microgynon gave me when I'd either feel super angry at nothing or I'd be crying over something silly so I don't feel as if I'm going completely crazy on Cerazette. Another big positive is something I've already mentioned which is that I *think* it's helping my daily pain more than Microgynon did. I still have pain daily and it still affects my quality of life but I know for a fact if I come off the pill I'm going to go straight back to the way I was before I was on the pill and I was not in a good state of mind back then, to the point that the way how I was feeling mentally was scaring the shit out of me. I still have bad mental health days but I don't feel like I'm in a constant depressive mood. It's either that or I'm just getting used to chronic pain life.

So overall even though I've been dealing with a lot of side effects I feel like I'm just going to stick it out a little longer and see how I go. I'm hoping my skin will clear up or settle down or that I'll find something which helps get rid of the weird bumps/spots and I'm also hoping that I don't gain any more weight. I also hope that the boob pain stays the hell away because that was brutal. I don't need any extra pain thank you very much lol.


Have you been on the mini pill before? 
If so, did you have any of the same side effects as me?


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I use CBD oil daily for my chronic pain and anxiety and I personally find that it works well for me, which you probably already know as I'm always going on about it. But it's literally the best thing I've discovered in terms of natural pain and anxiety relief. I tend to use a 5% 500mg strength oil on a day-to-day basis as I find that it works for me and I buy my 5% oils from various different places depending on how much I want to spend and what flavour (if any) I fancy buying. However when I'm in a lot of pain and I'm having a really bad flare up then I will opt for a stronger strength like a 600mg or 1000mg. I recently got the opportunity to try out Enhanced Biotics 10% 1000mg CBD Oil Drops* and in this post I'm going to be talking about their company and also how I've gotten on with their oil drops. 

Tom who is the founder of Enhanced Biotics was suffering with prolonged stress during his time at university. He rejected some of the prescription medication he was offered he began to search for some different ways of improving his well-being. He then came across CBD and after hearing about how popular it was in the USA he decided to give it a try. He quickly discovered that it was difficult to find a high quality CBD from a reputable supplier that had appropriately lab tested the product. After showing signs of stress relief from using CBD, he noticed numerous other mental health benefits and also found that the CBD was helping with his performance at the gym. He then envisioned Enhanced Biotics with the goal of helping others whilst providing high quality, safe and thoroughly lab tested products. 


Enhanced Biotics currently sell CBD Oil Drops starting from £29.99, CBD Capsules (300mg) which are priced at £21 and Vapes available in various flavours from Cool Mint Berry, Blackcurrant & Menthol, Mangoes & Cream and more.

I was kindly sent their strongest 10% 1000mg CBD Oil Drops priced at £59.99* (for a 10ml bottle) which is about the going rate for a CBD oil of that strength and size. They also offer free delivery with all domestic orders too which is a big plus. I've been using these drops on my really bad pain days and with it being a stronger strength and I can definitely feel some relief shortly after using it when I'm having a bad pelvic pain flare up. I tend to use 5-6 drops per day which usually does the trick. I'll sometimes have a couple more drops before I attempt to go to sleep just to tide me over during the night and also help me to settle my mind if I've had a bad day with my pain and I'm just feeling low. Even if you don't have a chronic illness or pain I've found that CBD oil is definitely the best thing I've tried for my anxiety and I've suffered with bad anxiety since I was about 12. I'm not going to lie, it does have a taste like most CBD oil drops (unless flavoured) but it's not the worst tasting CBD oil I've ever tried and believe me, I've tried some horrible tasting ones before. If you aren't a fan of the taste or texture of CBD taste in general then you could pop some in your cup of tea or coffee to help disguise the taste. That's what I do with CBD oils which taste really gross so that they don't go to waste. However I've found that I don't need to do that with Enhanced Biotics CBD which shows that it isn't that bad in terms of it's taste and texture.


Overall I'm impressed with the Enhanced Biotics 10% CBD Oil Drops* and I shall be picking up another bottle when I run out. I do find that my 10% oil drops last a little longer than the 5% bottles I use daily because I only use them when none of my other CBD products are touching the pain, so in my eyes it's worth the £59.99. I know it's what's inside what counts but I really like the bottle design too and you know what I'm like with cute or pretty packaging so I just thought I'd give it a mention. I'm also interested in trying out their CBD Capsules which contain 30x 10mg capsules at some point as I'm very intrigued to see how they work as I've never tried capsules before.

Have you tried any sort of CBD products before? If so, what did you think?

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 Some days I hate myself and I hate my body due to my chronic pain and I purposely don't give my body the self-care and rest it needs because I'm so annoyed (silly right?). Other days, I'm kinder to myself and stop kicking myself when I have to take a day off work, cancel plans and say no to a blogging opportunity etc. I'm trying to be kinder to myself as this is just me now and I have to accept that. I think anyone reading this with a chronic illness/chronic pain will understand where I am coming from. 

So how do I do self care when I'm basically crippled up in pain with my back or pelvic pain and can barely move from my bed and/or on days when I'm feeling really down in the dumps?

Catching up on sleep or or even allowing myself to have a cheeky nap in the afternoon if I really feel I need to works wonders most of the time. I've also found that using a self heating Space Masks eye masks* has been a complete game changer on nights when I'm struggling to sleep or even if I have a bad stress or hormonal headache. It is more of a luxury product but it does help.

I'm a big fan of using face masks in general and I prefer to use clay based masks usually just because they suit my oily skin the best. However on days when I'm feeling unwell or when I'm just feeling low but want a pick-me-up I tend to pop on a quick fix face mask like the Sanctuary Spa 1 Minute Daily Glow Face Mask, Pixi Glow-o2 Oxygen Mask or a sheet mask. I highly recommend Yes To and Oh K! for sheet masks btw. 

I've come to the conclusion that Multi Use Balms are such a good invention! My current fave is the Egyptian Magic All Purpose Skin Cream* and I always keep it either on top of my bedside table or somewhere in my bedside table drawers as I use it every single day. I've found it to be great to use as a lip balm, eye cream, hair balm and hair mask and it can also be used in more ways too. It contains Olive Oil, Bees Wax, Honey, Bee Pollen, Royal Jelly and Bee Propolis.

I really enjoy watching something funny and/or cheerful when I'm feeling rubbish. I'm currently rewatching Stella which is brilliant (starring Ruth Jones) and I'm watching the final season Jane the Virgin which always makes me laugh without fail. I also like to listen to happy, sing along kind of songs too just to try and perk me up.

I've found that having a warm bath filled with Epsom salts or Pink Himalayan bath salts has really been helping to calm my pain when it first starts to flare up bad. I obviously like to use some Lush products including their shower gels and bath bombs too. 


-L-R from top to bottom: Strike a Posie, Follow The Petals, I Feel Flower-ful
Gardenia My Heart, Merci Bouquet, Young, Wild and Free-sia-
-Wearing the shade Merci Bouquet*-
 I know it may sound silly but sometimes just painting my nails a pretty colour just makes me feel like I have my life together (when I really don't lol). I've been really enjoying Morgan Taylor's Spring Collection nail polishes* as they are literally my perfect kind of shades as I love a pastel or nude colour on my nails. I'm not too keen on super bold shades as I just don't think they suit me. The Morgan Taylor polishes apply so easily and they stay on well too. I also love the names of the shades - Strike a Posie, Follow The Petals, I Feel Flower-ful, Gardenia My Heart, Merci Bouquet, Young, Wild and Free-sia (see above photos for reference).

I don't want to sound horrible but sometimes talking to my family or friends on either the phone or via text is the last thing I need when I'm in a lot of pain or feeling low. It kind of drains my energy even more. However I know they are always there for me if I do need or want to reach out and have a chat or just to tell them how I'm feeling. I've got a good bunch of people around me who I know I can rely on and the past year has really shown who is really there for me no matter what and who isn't. I've also reconnected with some old friends over the past year too which has been nice.

Getting out of the house in general is quite hard for me. It's not that I don't want to make plans or go out shopping and etc. It's because I don't know how I'm going to be feeling from one minute to the next as my pain can just come on strong and that's it, I'm pretty much on the floor in agony. Thankfully I find CBD oil and balms help to take the edge off the pain most of the time. But I definitely have the fear of flaring up in the middle of a supermarket or shop and having a crowd of people around me wondering what's going on and that really plays on my mind even when I'm having a better day. But if I feel like getting out of the house then I will try to. Sometimes even just having a little walk down my garden and back up again is a good way to clear my mind and to get some fresh air if I've been stuck in the house for a few days.

Haley Neidich, LCSW is a licensed clinical social worker and the clinical director of ThriveTalk.com and has some great tips and advice on doing self care when you have a chronic illness.

She says "It's easy for mental health and wellness professionals to preach about self-care, but self-care takes real devotion and the underlying ability to care for, nurture and honour yourself. When you're dealing with a chronic illness, self-care looks much different. Self-care with a chronic illness is honouring where you are and what you're capable of on any given day and being very patient and kind with yourself on the days where you have less to give. In practice, self care can be as simple as closing your eyes for one deep breath, peering out the window to really soak in the view, listening to a great song that takes you away or having a morning journalling practice. One of the greatest gifts that those suffering from chronic illness can give themselves is the space to talk about their feelings. Talking to an online counselor is a great option for those you might be short on energy but nee the support." 


How do you do self-care and what ways work best for you?

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I know some people have started following me lately on both twitter and insta because they are interested in following my "endo journey". If you're not familiar then it's basically following my journey whilst I deal with my chronic pain and wait to finally be diagnosed with endometriosis which I'm pretty sure I have. I also know that some fellow chronic illness sufferers who are also bloggers like to see how I'm getting on with new medication and also seeing if I've tried any new methods to help ease my pain. However if you don't know about my chronic pain and how it started then here's a run down: I've been unwell since January last year. It started out as a really bad back problem and then around March my stomach started to hurt and I was getting really bad acid after eating and drinking pretty much anything. I changed up my diet and tried to eat as clean as possible after a unhelpful doctors appointment where they basically just told me I was fine and that I should just lose some weight. As I was unhappy with my first appointment I went back for a second opinion as I honestly was worried I had cancer or something sinister like that and then I had some tests done at the doctors and they diagnosed me with "Gastritis" which is basically a way of saying "You have inflammation in your stomach, we don't know what's causing it. Bye". So helpful... not. I was put on Omeprozole which I didn't like and then they switched me to Ranitidine and I'm still taking it daily now. Then in April I began to start having a lot of pain around my pelvic bone and ovaries and it's not stopped since. So I've basically been in pain every day since January last year with my pelvic area, back and also my stomach. Fun. 

I have tried a few different methods over the past couple of months to try and relieve the pain and thankfully I have found some things which help a little with the pain (most of the time anyway) but I do still struggle daily in day-to-day life. The majority of my doctors and hospital appointments have been really unhelpful if I'm being totally honest, so I'm just trying to manage the symptoms myself until someone finally listens to me and actually sends me for the laparoscopy I want. I've also been having some issues with my ears over the past month or so which is pretty normal for me as it's been an issue since I was younger. I have very narrow and small ear canals apparently which means I'm quite prone to earache, ear infections and I also get sinusitis quite bad too. I'm definitely going to be talking to my doctor about it at my next appointment.

Although I don't have huge news on the life update front, I have been making some (loose) plans for the summer which is exciting as last year I was basically completely bed bound throughout the whole of summer which really sucked. I had major FOMO and there was nothing I could do about it. It obviously depends on how I get on with my pain and if the new pill I'm on actually helps too. It's still all trial and error but fingers crossed I'll actually manage to do more this summer and go on some day trips and maybe even a few weekend breaks too. I'm also still doing the whole "thinking positively" thing and believing in the law of attraction as I'm pretty sure it works. This past week has been crazy and pretty much everyday things I've been wanting to happen, have actually happened. You can read more about why I believe in the law of attraction here

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Warning: If you don't like reading or talking about "girl problems", pain, blood, periods, and anything along those lines then this post is not for you.
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I'm sure by now if you read my blog often or follow me on social media then you'll know that I have chronic pelvic pain and back pain and I am in pain every day with it. I've recently discovered CBD oil which is the first thing which has actually helped the pain which I have not been allergic to. The only problem is that it's quite pricey and I get through 2-3 bottles per month as I take it daily because my pain is that severe most days. So when I got the opportunity to try Salve Herbal CBD Hemp Oil Drops* which are priced at £19.99 I was very intrigued to see if their drops work for me as their prices are the cheapest I've come across so far.
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I really like doing kind of "products on trial" type of posts because it gives you a mini review and update on products I've recently picked up or have been sent. I haven't done a products on trial kind of post for a while either so I thought it was about time I changed that. So here are some products I've been trying out recently and my thoughts so far.
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I know what you're thinking... A patch which basically looks like a long plaster which contains some natural oils can calm or stop your period cramps or even endometriosis/PCOS flare up pain? Yeah right! I know, I thought the same when I first heard about them. So I thought I'd talk about my experience whilst trying out the patches and whether or not I recommend them because let's face it, periods suck and if there's a natural way to calm or stop cramps then I'll take it!



I've been debating on trying CBD oil for my chronic back and pelvic pain for a while now but for various reasons I've been scared to try it. I was worried I would splash my money on it and then it wouldn't work or I'd need to take most of the bottle for it to actually kick in and work for me and it does seem quite pricey for the amount you get. It's also quite a touchy subject and I've spoken to other people about trying CBD and if they have tried it themselves and some said yes they have and it's worked wonders, whilst others have said that they had mixed feelings about it. Also a few said that they don't like the idea of using CBD which I totally understand too. But I feel like my options are running out for pain relief, I'm in pain daily with my lower back and also pelvic area (basically my ovaries, pelvic bone, hips and upper legs hurt every day). The only medication which helped the pain (Mefenamic Acid) made me have a severe allergic reaction twice which actually scared the hell out of me. The useless and rude gynaecologist I saw wouldn't listen to my many obvious symptoms of endometriosis and just said that I have "chronic pelvic pain" which was so helpful... not. My daily abilities are limited and some days just getting out of bed and having a shower or bath is a little victory. It's been a huge shock to the system. I mean I've never been the most active type of person but now I'm struggling to do simple day-to-day life things most days and it's upsetting and it does really get me down. 

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I know this is going to be quite a tough post for me to write and it’s going to be a long one but I think it's necessary to raise awareness for people in similar situations and realising when enough is enough in a job. Which is what happened to me after putting up with so much crap for almost 3 years in a job that made my anxiety and depression skyrocket pretty much during and after every shift as well as affecting a number of other things too. I’m also going to be talking about how I’m trying to manage working (from home) with a chronic illness which is all pretty new to me and something I’m still trying to get my head around but I’ll explain more in this post. 
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